Be Afraid. Be Very Afraid.

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Hello! Fear seems to be an appropriate topic, since it is now October. Fear holds us in place. It keeps us from reaching our goals. It also stops us from letting go of the things in life that aren’t working. It’s something we all deal with every day. These are just a few of my fears…

Fear of letting go of control.
A few weeks back my husband and I took a couple of days vacation. We decided to go stay up in a no kidding hobbit hole near Chelan. It was wonderful. But I was scared. I feared letting go of work, something I badly needed to do. Even on the day we left, I found myself with a number of tasks requiring my attention: an invoice needing to be issued, a contract needing to be signed, and an audiobook needing to be uploaded. All of these things I eventually chose to put off until after I came back. But it was difficult. “It wouldn’t take too long to do these now,” my fear reasoned. For me this was a slippery slope, and thankfully my gut knew it. If I did these seemingly minor stuff, I would be eroding that line between work and personal life I badly needed to establish for my own well-being. But for just a moment, my fear of control and seeming unprofessional ruled me.

Fear of taking the next step.
Another way fear tried to wrestle its way into my life recently was when I decided I needed to take the next step in my career and get more coaching. It’s so silly to even think about, but I was a jumble of nerves at the thought of coaching. That little voice in my head said “what if I really suck? What if those half a dozen game companies that have hired me don’t know what they’re doing, and I’ll find out I’m really not cut out for this? What if…? What if…?” In the end, everything was fine. But even if it wasn’t, so what? So I would learn sooner rather than later, not to waste my time. Isn’t that a good thing? Fear doesn’t think that way though.

Fear of losing my voice.
After a particularly gruelling game session on Monday I lost my voice. It was stupid and avoidable, but by Monday afternoon I had a croak which remained until Wednesday. I knew my voice would come back in a couple of days. I knew I just needed to drink lots of soothing herbal tea and steam my vocal folds. But my fear (and WebMD) told me acute laryngitis can sometimes last a couple of weeks, and what if that happened? I’ve got back-to-back audiobooks! I didn’t let the fear overpower me, but it was there in the back of my mind…

Unfortunately the only thing you can really do about fear is not let it rule you. Meditation and breathing have helped me a lot. I not only find it calming but it helps me to recognise the fear when it rears its ugly head. Recognition is key because fear can disguise itself. It might look like procrastination, or even practicality, and you have to discern whether what’s holding you back is real or the fear talking. What tools do you use to conquer fear?

In other news, I have two new audiobooks that just came out. Betrayals’ Price is the first book in a series by fantasy author Lisa Blackwood. Meanwhile, WhiteWing, the last book in the First Ordinance series also just came out. Have a listen!


The Last Straw

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Hello!

It’s been a super busy summer for me, both personally and professionally. Omega by Lizzy Ford came out a few weeks backs.

Since then, I finished the whopping 17-hour sequel to Aranya, Shadow Dragon by Marc Secchia and I also recently wrapped Betrayal’s Price by Lisa Blackwood. Both are really fun fantasy pieces that have stretched me, either with accents, or trying to create new, more animalistic voices. With Betrayal’s Price I had to create a birdlike race, a wolflike race, even talking horses! I’ve said this before but World of Warcraft videos have really helped me with coming up with ideas for voices!

Speaking of character voices, I’m also getting ready to record the final book in the First Ordinance series, which wraps things up very nicely. I think listeners will really like how everything comes together in the end. This is the first book where I’ve recorded the series from beginning to end, and it’s been such an interesting experience to live with all these (150-ish) characters for so long!

In other news, I recently discovered these amazing straw exercises in order to help stretch your vocal cords and warm up your voice. The idea is you basically do scales and sing songs through a straw. The thinner the better. Ideally you would use a cocktail-size straw, although you may find that you need to use a bigger straw at first. It really forces you to work your abs and helps your breathing so you’re not running out of air in the middle of sentences. My goal in life is always to make my editor’s job easier! I’ll be honest, I’m still pretty bad at the straw exercises. It takes a lot of work for me to do those high notes on a scale, but I definitely sense a difference. The first time I tried with the cocktail straw, I could barely get a sound out, and now…. well, I make noises anyway. I do a lot of other vocal warm up exercises, which I’ll have to save for a later post, in the meantime I’ll leave you with this video from Ingo Titze teaching the straw exercises.

Surviving the Summer Sniffles

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Gosh, it seems as though I’m playing catch up again. Summer is halfway done, although if you’re in Seattle, it’s only just begun, it seems. Which of course means I catch a cold. Actually my hubby caught a cold, which made me extremely likely to catch his, despite my crazy obsession with Purell and antibacterial wipes. I suppose I could have annexed him to the other side of the house. But I kinda like him.

As a voice actor, being laid up with a cold causes a bit of a wrinkle in my schedule. Thankfully, this is the first cold I’ve had in a year and a half. Not bad when you consider the average person gets 2-4 colds per year. True, I talk in a box all day, but still, not a bad score…

How do I avoid a cold? Preventative measures are crucial. I neti pot every day. It helps open up my sinuses for recording. And if I’m around someone with a cold, I neti pot twice a day. I use a solution of salt and xylitol that an ENT recommended, which tends to work for my immune system most of the time. I also use Purell often when I’m out and about. And when I fly- yep, I’m the crazy person with the anti-bacterial wipes, wiping down the headrest, arms rests and all around the tray table. I’m sure I look like some kind of freak. Plus, I always have my nasal spray handy. It’s the best thing for that dry, icky airplane air that keeps circulating germs around. It’s also the best way to flush out any germs wanting to take up residence in your nasal passages.

All of which still means I could catch a cold, as this week proved. If that happens, my first line of defence is lemon water with some salt, to correct the PH in my body. Usually, that and extra neti potting gets rid of the sniffles instantly, but if the cold really hits, and my throat is sore and I’m coughing, I love me some nin jiom pei pa koa which is a Chinese herbal cough syrup. It’s very soothing and tastes a lot better than cough syrup or even throat coat. I just pour a tablespoon into a cup of hot water and record at my leisure-assuming I’m up for recording.

My latest new (to me) discovery is using a steam inhaler. I’d heard from several vocal therapists that really the only way to hydrate your vocal folds is to breathe in steam. Even so, I didn’t bother getting one until this past week. The last time I had a cold, I had a pretty bad cough for several weeks that just would not go away, even with antibiotics. It left my vocal folds stressed out, and meant it took a tremendous amount of energy just to narrate for an hour or two. Now admittedly, aside from recording the first 15 minutes for Betrayal’s Price (by Lisa Blackwood), I haven’t actually tried to see how the steam affects my vocal cords. I’m trying to rest my voice for a day or two before getting in the booth. But so far, just for congestion, the steam inhaler has worked great. Before I bought the inhaler, I honestly couldn’t see myself using steam except when I had stressed my vocal cords,which is thankfully pretty rare. Now, I can see myself using it almost every day. It’s so easy to plug in and use for 5-15 minutes in the morning while I’m checking mail, and preparing for the day.

In other news, before I got sick, I’d been busy in the booth recording back-to-back audiobooks. The first, Omega by Lizzy Ford should hopefully be released in the next couple of weeks. It was such a fun book to record. A unique world, and such fun, sharp dialogue. The other book, is still in the process of being edited. That was also a very fun book to do. It’s the sequel to Aranya, Shadow Dragon by Marc Secchia. What a fun book. But oy vey, coming back to the characters and trying to remember accents and character voices after a year and a half was interesting. There’s also a whole lot of dragon voices in this book. Which just gave me an excuse to research World of Warcraft dragon voices on You Tube, because, why not?! 🙂