Be Afraid. Be Very Afraid.

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Hello! Fear seems to be an appropriate topic, since it is now October. Fear holds us in place. It keeps us from reaching our goals. It also stops us from letting go of the things in life that aren’t working. It’s something we all deal with every day. These are just a few of my fears…

Fear of letting go of control.
A few weeks back my husband and I took a couple of days vacation. We decided to go stay up in a no kidding hobbit hole near Chelan. It was wonderful. But I was scared. I feared letting go of work, something I badly needed to do. Even on the day we left, I found myself with a number of tasks requiring my attention: an invoice needing to be issued, a contract needing to be signed, and an audiobook needing to be uploaded. All of these things I eventually chose to put off until after I came back. But it was difficult. “It wouldn’t take too long to do these now,” my fear reasoned. For me this was a slippery slope, and thankfully my gut knew it. If I did these seemingly minor stuff, I would be eroding that line between work and personal life I badly needed to establish for my own well-being. But for just a moment, my fear of control and seeming unprofessional ruled me.

Fear of taking the next step.
Another way fear tried to wrestle its way into my life recently was when I decided I needed to take the next step in my career and get more coaching. It’s so silly to even think about, but I was a jumble of nerves at the thought of coaching. That little voice in my head said “what if I really suck? What if those half a dozen game companies that have hired me don’t know what they’re doing, and I’ll find out I’m really not cut out for this? What if…? What if…?” In the end, everything was fine. But even if it wasn’t, so what? So I would learn sooner rather than later, not to waste my time. Isn’t that a good thing? Fear doesn’t think that way though.

Fear of losing my voice.
After a particularly gruelling game session on Monday I lost my voice. It was stupid and avoidable, but by Monday afternoon I had a croak which remained until Wednesday. I knew my voice would come back in a couple of days. I knew I just needed to drink lots of soothing herbal tea and steam my vocal folds. But my fear (and WebMD) told me acute laryngitis can sometimes last a couple of weeks, and what if that happened? I’ve got back-to-back audiobooks! I didn’t let the fear overpower me, but it was there in the back of my mind…

Unfortunately the only thing you can really do about fear is not let it rule you. Meditation and breathing have helped me a lot. I not only find it calming but it helps me to recognise the fear when it rears its ugly head. Recognition is key because fear can disguise itself. It might look like procrastination, or even practicality, and you have to discern whether what’s holding you back is real or the fear talking. What tools do you use to conquer fear?

In other news, I have two new audiobooks that just came out. Betrayals’ Price is the first book in a series by fantasy author Lisa Blackwood. Meanwhile, WhiteWing, the last book in the First Ordinance series also just came out. Have a listen!


The Last Straw

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Hello!

It’s been a super busy summer for me, both personally and professionally. Omega by Lizzy Ford came out a few weeks backs.

Since then, I finished the whopping 17-hour sequel to Aranya, Shadow Dragon by Marc Secchia and I also recently wrapped Betrayal’s Price by Lisa Blackwood. Both are really fun fantasy pieces that have stretched me, either with accents, or trying to create new, more animalistic voices. With Betrayal’s Price I had to create a birdlike race, a wolflike race, even talking horses! I’ve said this before but World of Warcraft videos have really helped me with coming up with ideas for voices!

Speaking of character voices, I’m also getting ready to record the final book in the First Ordinance series, which wraps things up very nicely. I think listeners will really like how everything comes together in the end. This is the first book where I’ve recorded the series from beginning to end, and it’s been such an interesting experience to live with all these (150-ish) characters for so long!

In other news, I recently discovered these amazing straw exercises in order to help stretch your vocal cords and warm up your voice. The idea is you basically do scales and sing songs through a straw. The thinner the better. Ideally you would use a cocktail-size straw, although you may find that you need to use a bigger straw at first. It really forces you to work your abs and helps your breathing so you’re not running out of air in the middle of sentences. My goal in life is always to make my editor’s job easier! I’ll be honest, I’m still pretty bad at the straw exercises. It takes a lot of work for me to do those high notes on a scale, but I definitely sense a difference. The first time I tried with the cocktail straw, I could barely get a sound out, and now…. well, I make noises anyway. I do a lot of other vocal warm up exercises, which I’ll have to save for a later post, in the meantime I’ll leave you with this video from Ingo Titze teaching the straw exercises.

Quick Update

Gosh where has the last month gone? I can’t believe we’re almost halfway through the year. Yikes. Everything is blooming in Seattle, and it even got to the mid 80s the other day. I actually had to turn on the AC for my booth! It’s been a busy month too.  I had two new audiobooks come out: Gray Man Rising by PE Padilla and the third book in the First Ordinance series, BlackWing by Connie Suttle.

I also recorded two new audiobooks: Pirate Bound by Carysa Locke and I’m just finishing up the fourth book in the First Ordinance series SpellBreaker, both of those should be available around June.

With all that going on, I did still manage to take some time out to go to Emerald City Comicon where I was lucky enough to get a pro pass this year. I attended several VO panels, including the always entertaining Nolan North. I had hoped to meet some authors at the convention and maybe build some business relationships, but there weren’t as many independent authors there as I would have liked, although I did get intel on some new game and publishing ventures that I’ll be following up on.

All of these audiobooks this past month has meant I haven’t been too great with the marketing, although I have started to approach a overseas few elearning companies. I’ve gotten some good responses, so the seeds are still getting sown, just not as quickly as I’d like, and alas, the next month looks to be just as crazy. Which isn’t so bad….